Sunday, November 16, 2008

Quit date depression.

Once again I have set a quit date to stop smoking. Tuesday, November 18th. As usual, two days before the event, I am going through a deep , suicidal depression. My mind, in advance, just locks on to every negative. It as if I am playing a game with the assorted demons inside my head and losing. Getting my rear end kicked, in fact. Someday, when I've actually quit, if such a day ever arrives, I won't have to go through this anymore.

5 comments:

bhd said...

Maybe you can look at it another way. Instead of performance anxiety, make it a game of "I'm making healthy decisions for myself," or even plan a very gradual weaning off the smokes, rather than a cold turkey.

This addiction is a tough one. I remember. But from this side, I can tell you that you're bigger than the anxiety, bigger than the pressure, and bigger than the cigarette.

I'm picturing you picking up a smoke, looking at it carefully, then breaking it in half while doing a seriously testosterone-fueled victory dance "IN YOUR FACE! IN YOUR FACE!" at that smoke you didn't have.

Go for it!

Anonymous said...

BHD is right. You gotta be bigger than the ciggarette. Maybe some Nicorette gum in the beginning too...? I am really pulling for ya big guy!

Mississippi Songbird said...

praying for you, Larry.. Bunches of hugs...

Mississippi Songbird said...

Larry, I hope you have a Safe and Wonderful New Year filled with good things! God Bless you..

Naj said...

:)

Hi there!

hmm let's see which one of us succeeds first: I getting rid of Ahmadinejad and you getting rid of your smoking!

Thanks for dropping by.

Please do some again ana take a look at lots of art and cultural stuff that I have posted in better times :) They will lift your spirit to see how wonder ful things have been possible even under the clouds of our dark leaders.